dermatillomania

ugh I think I have dermatillomania, not as bad as I see on Google. Since I’ve been picking on scabs on the back of my head for like 10 years. And I’ve always scratched mosquito bites or any itchy part till it bleeds or hurts. Now I have this spot on my left inner arm that I’ve been scratching for a few months now. It started with an allergic reaction to plants I worked with at work, which causes itchy bumps. Normally it would just go away, but I’ve kept on scratching so now it looks weird. The skin that has renewed has like a lighter pigment or so, it’s strange. And the skin feels a little bumpy.. ugh. I don’t know why I do this. I guess it’s indeed to reduce stress, cause I feel better after scratching or picking. I don’t really wanna go to the doctor because I think he’ll prescribe some stuff that probably won’t work since I’ll scratch it anyway. I have had some stuff for my head in the past, but it all didn’t really work either. Or the doctor will send me to the psychiatrist or so, but I don’t have the money for that, since I also am planning to go to a therapist for other issues. Which I’ve been wanting for like 6 months, but I wanna wait till the new year begins since that will be more profitable as far as insurance goes. 

Okay. Long story. But I just had to get this off my chest :/

skin picking dermatillomania excoriation disorder ocd obsessive compulsive doctor therapist i dont know what to do ugh derma

"Maybe that’s why I get frustrated sometimes, because there’s no one to blame for how our lives have turned out. I wouldn’t change any of the things I’ve done, but at the same time I wish things were different than they are. I have no regrets, but there’s also no satisfaction in where I am."
- Chris Dietzel The Man Who Watched The World End (via sempiternale)

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viva-la-prussia:

how to tell i am comfortable talking to you:

  • i say things that make zero sense
  • i say the random things that come to mind
  • i act like a complete idiot when talking to you
  • i use dumb emoticons 

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charlestrippy:

Thank you Leah for making this for making this for the day 2000 and passing them to the audience ❤️❤️❤️